Love comes in different ways, shapes and forms. For me that couldn’t be a more truthful saying. You could say I was different from most people. I was of course human unlike my protector boyfriend but I was in love with him. People would think it wasn’t by choice that I love him because of what he does. To vampires he was a killer of their kind, a sworn enemy, a protector of La Push Reservation but to me he was just Paul, the shape shifting wolf I was in love with. He was my life and I was his.  Unfortunately that would all change. I had to think of a way to tell him what was happening with me. At the moment I had no clue to what I was going to do. No clue to how I was going to say it. Right now all I had to do was clear my head to start thinking straight. I pulled up to the abandoned First Beach. Everyone was at home because it was pouring with rain. I loved the rain. It was always a calming, relaxing feeling when I felt it hit my skin. I got out of the car and walked onto the sand. I took off my shoes and started walking towards the waters edge. Once I got to the waters edge I stood there looked up at the sky and closed my eyes letting the rain hit me and the water flow over my feet. First beach is where I had met Paul. Almost drowning pretending to drown to get his attention was how I met him.  ***---FLASHBACK---***“Hey V, check them out” my boy crazy best friend said pointing to a group of guys throwing a football around on the sand. Lynn and I were in the water swimming around when she had spotted them. I turned to look at them. They were gorgeous with their tanned skin, ripped bodies and short black hair. I looked at all the guys my eyes stopping on one of them. My attention was on him and him only; the other guys didn’t seem to matter.  “I have a plan” a 16 year old me said. “No V, enough of your crazy plans, you almost always get killed doing them” Lynn said, she never approved of me and my stunts but always went along with them. “This one won’t kill me, I promise” I said trying to defend my plan. “What is it then?” she sighed knowing I would do it even without her permission. “I pretend to drown” I told her simply. “Are you f*cking insane?” she said keeping a calm tone in her voice. “It’s the only way to get those guys attention other wise they would never look at us” I said. “You do have a point” she sighed. “Ok so here’s what were going to do, you walk up onto the sand like your going to the bathroom or something, I stay in the water and pretend to start drowning you start yelling for someone to help, the guys since they're the only ones here will then come and rescue me and then we can start chatting them up” I explained. “Ok” Lynn sighed as she started walking towards the shore. I waited until Lynn was out of the water and headed to her car. I started pretending to drown and started yelling help. I saw Lynn run to the shore line and start yelling for someone to help. What happened next was something I didn’t expect to happen. I actually started drowning. As I started panicking and struggling with the current of the waves I felt my body start to become tired and drained. I felt my eyes slowly close as water over took my lungs. I felt myself being tugged by something just as I blacked out. “Is she breathing” I heard Lynn’s voice sounding worried. “she still has a pulse so she’ll be ok” an unknown voice said. I felt someone pushing on my chest and I choked up water. I opened my eyes to see three guys and Lynn standing over me. Lynn had her signature worried look that she always gets when I do something that almost kills me. “Thank god your alright” she said diving for me and hugged me tightly. “Never in a million years do that again just to try and get a boys attention” she said hugging me tightly. “I don’t plan on doing it since it worked” I said hugging her back. “You have Paul to thank for pulling you out of the water” one of the unknown’s said. “That would be good if I knew which one of you is Paul” I said looking at the boy who spoke. “Well im Sam, that’s Jared and that one there looking angry, is Paul” the unknown that is now known said. I stood up and walked up to Paul and hugged him. “Thank you” I said wrapping my arms around his waist leaning into his hot skin. “Your welcome” he said as he hesitantly hugged me pack. I pulled back and looked up at him and smiled. As my eyes met his something inside of me clicked. Paul was the guy I was meant to be with, we had a connection that no one could explain. He looked back at me with the same expression on his face that I had on mine. I knew he could feel the connection too. I hesitantly broke our eye contact and looked down at my feet. “Can I do anything for you to show how thankful I am to you for saving me?” I asked him barely above a whisper. “You can let me take you out to a movie, maybe dinner too” he said with the same quiet tone in his voice. “Ok” I said and looked back up at him. I saw him give me a quick smile and I gave him one in return. “Paul we have to go” Sam said grabbing Pauls attention. “Coming” he told Sam. “I’ll pick you up from here tomorrow at 7” he said to me before catching up with Sam and Jared. “I should drown more often” I mumbled to myself. “Your stupid you know that” I heard Lynn say. “But you have to admit good things come out of my stupidity” I pointed out. “For you yes, for me not so much, its not going to be your stupidity that kills you its gonna be karma that bites you in the ass for being stupid” she said frowning at me. “Im sorry ok, I wont do it again” I said. “You wont drown yourself again but I know I cant be guaranteed for the other stuff you do” she sighed still frowning at me. “Lynn, please lighten up and come help me decide what im going to wear for this date tomorrow night” I said pulling her up to the road. “Fine” she said as we walked to her car. We got to her car and got in. She drove to my place and we got out and went to my room after seeing my parents were away for the night again. ----- It was now the day of the date; well I called it a date even though I didn’t know if it was. Lynn had managed to get me into a skirt and a nice top. I didn’t really feel comfortable in what I was wearing but that’s the price you pay for trying to impress a guy whose name is the only thing about him that you know. I had been waiting 10 minutes when I saw Paul walk up to me looking like he was trying to force a smile. “Are you ok?” I asked him concerned. “Yeah im fine, just the guys were giving me a hard time about taking you out.” he sighed. “We don’t have to go anywhere if you don’t want to, we can just stay here and get to know each other, become friends.” I suggested. “It would be better to do that instead of jumping right in to it” he agreed. See we’re on the same page already.” I laughed. For the rest of the night Paul and I ran around the beach, swam awfully close to each other, when we were on shore he wrapped me in his arms to keep me warm, his skin was hotter than I have ever felt before. It may have not been the date we planned or the fact it wasn’t a date anymore but I knew I was falling for this Paul guy, his hot skin and ripped body were just a bonus to his charm and mysteriousness.---End flashback--- I smiled remembering the first time I saw Paul on his own. He seemed relaxed unlike when he saved me from actually drowning when I was trying to pretend to. He seemed to open up to me even though he didn’t seem the type to tell anyone anything if he didn’t have to. Yet again back then he did have something he couldn’t tell me. “Violet there you are” I heard my husbands voice from behind me. “What are you doing here? Its pouring with rain, you could get sick.” He added as he wrapped his arms around me to keep me warm. I was use to his warm keeping me warm but I still loved it. I didn’t answer any of his questions; I just let my body melt into his.  “Lets get you home and warmed up” he said after a moment’s silence. He let me go and started walking toward me car. He must have run here but I knew he would tell me why later. ”Paul” I said getting his attention. “Yeah” he said turning to face me. “I’ll always love you through life and death, you know that right?” I asked as he started walking back up to me. “Of course I know that, that’s why we’re married and have two beautiful kids, I love you through life and death too” he said pulling me into his arms again. I rested my head against his chest and sighed heavily. “Lets get home” he said pulling back from me and took my hand leading me back to my car. “Where are the kids” I asked him as we walked inside to an empty home. “Yana is a Jessica’s and Damien is staying with Aunt Emily and Uncle Sam” Paul told me following me into our bedroom. “But it’s a school night, they know they're not allowed to stay over at anyone’s house on a school night” I said scolding at Paul. “It’s ok, I sent them so we could have the rest of the day and night to ourselves” he said giving me a small smile. Yana short for Aiyana was our 13 year old daughter who was staying at Lynn and Jared’s place with their 13 year old daughter Jessica. Jessica was two months older than Yana so they were practically like sisters. Damien was our 6 year old son; he was already so much like Paul with his short temper and ego, he had a big ego for a six year old boy. I had, had Aiyana when I was 17 and loved the fact I was a young mum. My parents never approved of me being pregnant to Paul, yet again they didn’t approve of me being pregnant at all. It wasn’t until they held Yana in their arms they finally approved of her accepted the fact they were going to be grandparents no matter what. When I got pregnant with Damien they were over the moon about having another grandchild. “How do you get all the good ideas and it works and when I do it doesn’t work” I asked hugging him and resting the side of my head on his chest. “Because I have the charm” he said smugly wrapping his arms around my waist. “I thought you only used your charm on me?” I asked. “I do.” He said, I could hear the smile on his face. “Because it always works on you and you know the godparents are always willing to take care of their godchildren” He added with his classic Paul smirk written on his face. “Yes I know but why did you get rid of the kids for tonight instead of waiting for the weekend?” I asked. “Because I wanted to spend time together, just us two, I feel like I hardly get time to myself because you’re always with Emily and Lynn or concentrating on the kids, I feel like were falling apart” he admitted with a quiet tone in his voice. I moved back to look at him. “The only thing that is going to keep us apart is death.” I said looking into his big brown eyes. “And that’s far, far away” he said looking back into my blue eyes. ‘Sooner than you think’ I thought to myself. I wasn’t ready to tell him yet. There was no one I could tell him just yet. My life was ending meaning his life would fall and slowly end too. I had to let him enjoy this time he had with me, I couldn’t let this slow him down like it was slowing me down.